Me And My Decisions....

I have a story to tell,
One that you should listen,
It's not about a boy and a girl,
It's about me and my decisions.

I was once like you,
With absolutely nothing to do,
Except carry a schoolbag on my shoulder,
And a cap on my head.

Time changes quickly,
Years pass by in a second,
I went from being the topper in Grade One,
To the drop out in Grade Ten.

I had no home,
Only a house to live in.
A place where parents would curse me,
And wonder why I wasnt studiying.

Life seemed hard,
My world seemed cruel,
So what better thing to do,
Than to end it, once and for all?

Now I wonder what it was,
That made me jump,
Poor grades, shouting parents,
Or just myself?

Because now, when I think about it,
Life wasnt so bad,
All I had to do was study,
And never make my parents sad.

Instead here I am,
Staring at the ceiling,
Wondering how life would be,
If I hadnt been complaining.

I wish I can stop you,
From doing what I did,
But how can I, when I'm paralysed.
From the toes till my hip.

I jumped from the top,
Of a five storey building,
I hit the ground,
But my heart kept beating.

They rushed me to the hospital,
Attempted suicide, the nurse said.
The doctor looked at me sadly,
He knew my fate even before I did.

I saw my mother,
Weeping profusely,
My father was stronger,
He tried to save me.

But not even the best of doctors,
or the strongest of medicines,
Could undo my mistakes,
And make me walk once again.

So for the rest of my life now,
I'll meet more people like you,
And to them I'll say,
What I've just told you.

I have a story to tell,
One that you should listen,
Its not about a boy or a girl,
It's about me and my decisions...